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| Yesterday my boyfriend rode nearly every rusty, wobbly, and squeaky carnie ride at the festival for me. :) He did it just for me. To make me happy. Even though he nearly puked several times. Which in a way is funny since he faces danger every day at work and is the bravest guy out there but rides bring fear... just makes him cuter to me for some reason. Lol. He also got me a wonderful vintage inspired compass. So I won't get lost in the woods when we go camping he says. I know that may be partially true but I also know it's because I've always wanted one, he listened and got me one.
I have seriously got the most amazing man in the world for me. I forget this at times because well, my mind can't believe in such greatness. How I am so fortunate to find a good man. One who loves me and appreciates me so much.
Somehow, someway, I am dating the most amazing man in the world.
On the mornings that I get to wake beside him, I smile with great happiness. I'll stir from my slumber for a few seconds and look at his peaceful face. His fine features and stubble... I fall in love with him again each morning that my eyes feast upon his face. Then I close my eyes and sleep with a smile on my face. :)
Because I have the greatest man beside me. | | |
| I am 5'3" and my boyfriend is 6'3". His tub is a nice size... if you want to somewhat lay back... while sitting... for someone my size. So, try to fit him and I in it, interesting!
But we made it happen. We poured some Mr. Bubbles in there and it was on!
He sat down and in I went to sit in front of him. We got into a nice position into which both of us would be comfy. I laying back onto him. :)
So we sat there in a tiny tub filled with bubbles and lots of love in our hearts.
It was so peaceful. Even in that tiny tub with my knees sticking out, we were perfect with one another. :)
Earlier that day we went on his 4 wheeler. It was my second time and I did pretty amazing if I say so myself! I was off onto 4th gear flying by with the best view in front of me and behind me. In front, the sky and clouds with the sun peeking through. Behind me, my handsome boyfriend and his doggie.
Then earlier that day he changed my oil in my car and I watched, handing him a beer as he worked. He also taught me to change my own tire!!!! My Dad never would. =( So when he said yes to me, I about died with joy. Nothing freaks me out more than the thought of being stranded and unable to even change my own damn tire if need be. But now I know so thanks to him, I am not so helpless. =)
Yesterday was a pretty great day with him. ^_^
It's days like those with him that I remember why I'm in this (not that I need reminding but we had a tough week). For that one and only true love we have together. He is pretty amazing. <3 But so am I so bwahahaha. :P A balance. He is my one and only.
Oh yeah! And we went to Build A Bear and made one together, for US. He has 3 hearts in him and made with our amore. Ain't that cute? :) Skellie is his name and he will spend his time between us, like a divorcees kid. Lol. But not so much.
Anyway, that was my cheese update. Gotta love the cheese. | | |
| An update.
So, well, I am happy. :)
Come Tuesday, school will begin again. I need to finish ASAP or else I will lose my drive. Damn small checks. :(
On to my true purpose! I am sooooooo in love. On New Years Eve (unintended), my boyfriend told me he was in love with me. Lil ol me! And I said it in return, naturally!
Since, our relationship is ever blossoming and greater than before. It's the sweetest, cutest, most giving relationship on the planet.
Couldn't be happier!
We are so perfect for one another. Hell, I'd marry him tomorrow if I could! Lol. I don't see myself wanting anyone else, ever. :) Why would I when I have him? Him who is so perfect and kind to me.
Golly! The cheese.
Of course we have our mini arguements but they're nothing. Just misunderstandings that we clear instantly. End up being even closer afterwards.
So this is what a greatly matched relationship/ couple looks like aye?
Pure happiness oozing out of ones pores? Lol. Very rad.
When people ask about him, I can't help but to say the kindest things about him, how he is great and amazing. They comment on how happy I sound and that I have the hugest smile plastered on my face when talking about him.
Thank you God. :) For he is the closest to heaven I have ever been on this Earth. What a gift! | | |
| I have had quite the time recently with my boyfriend. Any problems we have, we talk about right away to fix it and prevent future issues with it. The most fantastic thing couples can do!
He spent Christmas with my family and I, plus our birthdays. We have seen each other every day since Saturday which is crazy.
Though I have enjoyed every second of it. Never been happier in a relationship than the one I have with him.
He is proving to be the perfect male specimen for me every damn day. :) In other relationships I would get bored quick or find flaws soon enough. But he keeps impressing me and surprising me with his many talents. From oral sex to archery! Amazing he is.
Over 2 months with this guy and it feels like we have been together for ages and we're not even bored with one another.
I don't know how to explain it. :/ It's this feeling of being with the one I have wanted all my life. As if the faceless man in my dreams now has a face I recognize, his. Like my body and mind have been waiting for him. That now that he is in my life, my entire being is at peace. Lame, I know. :P
I never saw myself saything cheesy ass things like this.
I had a dream the other night. That I was asleep and he was holding my face in his hands telling me he loved me. He repeated this 3 times and I opened my eyes finally and then the dream was over. I woke and felt disappointed that it hadn't happened.
I do want him to love me someday (naturally), to hear those words coming from his lips into my ear giving me the ultimate eargasm to date. I secretly wish every time that when he jokes with me, "pssst Shirley... I have a secret..." that those are the words his lips will utter.
Bahahahahaa!
But the SANE part of my mind is thinking, "damn Shirley... it's only been over TWO lil months! You're crazy. Stop thinking those things! You ONLY ever wanna hear those things from someone who genuinely means it unlike past assholieos." So I listen to my superego... and let my ego balance it out by allowing myself to simply enjoy the moments of now with him, entirely content in living in the world of being in LIKE. :) lol. Though my ID is totally coming thru via dreams. Lol.
Meh. TMI. Yes, yes.
My blog is my only outlet for talking about the things I can't say out loud.
Nothing to lose in the privacy of my blogs. :)
Did I mention the sex has gotten pretty damn great? I feel it can only get better. *swoon*
What a keeper.
So for the things I can't say aloud to him, I say to myself...
I am so damn smitten with him. How could I not fall for my Jason? I would be a fool not to. From his toes to his hair to who he is in and out... how could I not love every bit of him? :) Impossible.
Ah. Feels good to "say" it. Type it. Been thinking it. Just keeping it to self.
This day in age a girls gotta keep her hearts true desires a secret because man of today runs from such emotions. Sad but true.
William Blake, you said it my friend. Tatted on my chest is a premonition of truth. | | |
| This will be a sweet and short... hopefully quick blog because I have to get to work.
So last night I was drowning with feelings over my boyfriend. There he is next to me and my heart... my insides... are overwhelmed by... THIS FEELING that I don't know what to do with. Trying to fight it with all my might which made me distance myself from him... which of course he noticed and we went to bed... not in each others arms for once. Due to my insistence. I woke up sad because of it but we made up for it. 
Then later on he drove me home and on the way we were talking about how we wouldn't see each other for a few days. He walked me to my door and we did the usual and then I went inside my house. I got to my room when I just got this pull to go outside... hoping that he was there still.
I caught him right before he drove past and he stopped and I opened his door and embraced him. I locked on to him and he locked on to me and we just held each other. I was filled with so much.... love... that emotion I have been fighting and I wanted to cry. We kissed and hugged more and we parted ways again. With this weird feeling in the air...
I went to shower and I just started crying. Crying and I was so confused as to why. Like... why was I crying?!?!?!? I felt joyous and happy and sad and mad all at the same time. I felt overwhelmed with the knowing that this barrier I was holding up... had broken down. That there was no line between my feelings anymore. That he is officially... in my heart. That my heart is officially his. That there is no doubting that I've fallen in love. :)
Gayness. Sigh. | | |
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